by Ray Jason
Time shimmers past differently for a long-distance
sailor. The daily markers that are so
familiar in the real world do not exist out on the Wide Waters. There is no breakfast with the family or
racing off to school or leaving for work.
There is only the subtle curve of the horizon, the enveloping water, and
the on-looking sky. Occasionally a wild
sea creature flies past or emerges from the depths, but mostly it is an
immensity of space and an undulating flow of time.
Thus, my decades as a sea gypsy have gently distorted
my sense of how swiftly the years thunder by.
So I was totally blindsided last week when I realized that the 50th
anniversary of the assassination of President Kennedy was approaching. That horror bludgeoned me in my youth. It was the first time that I really had to
deal with mortality. That was my initial
taste of the bitter randomness of death – of someone being vibrantly alive and
then gone forever.
Like so many other young people, I was inspired by JFK
and hoped to one day follow his lead in sculpting a better world from the clay
of our democracy’s political institutions.
My grief then was overwhelming and personal – my hero had been viciously
gunned down. But as the decades ebbed
and flowed, my sense of loss widened and intensified. Yes, I had lost a role model, but the planet
had lost a visionary and a healer.
What haunts me the most is that brilliant speech that
he made before the United Nations when he offered the olive branch of Peace
during one of the most incendiary stages of the Cold War. When I watch that footage and see him accepting
the applause from the General Assembly after he offers to lead a campaign for
total world disarmament, a heart-breaking realization assaults me. He
already knew! There is a nobility
and resignation in his body language that seems to imply a foreknowledge that
the bullets had already left the guns and were headed his way. He probably understood that by speaking those
peace-seeking words, he was signing his own death warrant. But he spoke them anyway - boldly and
poetically - because he knew that sometimes Right must defy Might.